Dream.

Falling

and Falling

and Falling


I didn’t want to fall

I never wanted to fall.

but i fell.



i am aware.
Aware of Hands
R e a c h i n g o u t

and Grabbing me,

Pulling
me
in.

i am Terrified.

i don't want these cold,

Dead Hands
Near me.

i need
to fall away



.
A girl
A friend?

coaxes me to fall with her
Away,



we are so far away




Her Voice,
It’s so sweet
and captivating.
and Alluring.

She Guides me,
Steering me away from the monsters.
They whisper sweet nothings in my ear
Of promises of safety
of promises of help
and of promises of hope.



she says to Trust NO ONE.
And so I obey.
and so i fell
and so she fell
and so we both fell.
together.
hand in hand.
so far away

Her grasp was So warm


and inviting.


I forgot about falling.
.
.
.
It was nice.



she was Stunning.

I envied her.

I Wondered who she was.

An actress?
A model?

I wanted to spend a day in her shoes,

Her expensive, shiny shoes.



she gave me Hope,
so i Welcomed her.


it's quite cozy in here.


I think .
Did she lead me here

and push me in?
.
.
.



Denial
That's not right.
I chose to follow her.
...I must be losing my sanity.
Slowly, but surely
going
absolutely
insane.

I'm losing myself -
it's hard to be found
when it's so dark.




i Wish that I could feel the Earth beneath my feet.
but I feel nothing.


no, less than nothing.



I can only feel the darkness creeping up
and Sucking me in

Grabbing my legs

and swallowing me whole.



I am being consumed.


it's getting hard to breathe.



i’m going blind. Blind.


I feel happier here,
in this hole.
It's nice.
And it's quiet.
And I can think.
I can think about everything.
I have all the time in the world.


After all,
i'm not very busy.



oh yes, I am quite happy.



i'm falling.
i'm falling...
.
.
.
am i falling?


My thoughts muddle.



Was this truly Happiness?


How did i get here?


I Never thought that this would be me.


I don’t know this girl.


Who is she?


do I let go?




i let go



and so she turns frail
and pale and cold.


She reaches for me,


but I pull away.



She looks quite scary.




this stranger turns to dust.
And fades away.
Into blackness.









I don't want to fall.

Not anymore.






It’s too late for me now though




i can feel the bottom Closing in.



Panic.
I grasp for something.
Anything.


I didn't want this.
I didn't want any of this
I didn't mean for any of this to happen.
I don't want to fall anymore.
I don’t want to fall.



I give up.

My Fate is sealed.

Inches away from an untimely end.
A gruesome end.
A pitiful end,
alone in a dark hole.


i Look up, expecting nothing but Darkness.

yet, i couldn't see it.

At least, not anymore.




Am I falling in reverse?


I only see
light.



A hand grabs me






and I wake up.