Ends and Beginings

[ToVaTHeMaRTiaN]

I stand on the ledge
Overlooking the city
What if I land on a car?
What If I cause a crash?
Well, that would be just like me
Wouldn't it be?
Causing only damage to this world
Even in death
It's not cold and rainy like in the movies
It's actually a nice day
Blue skies
Warm breezes
I guess I shouldn't expect the world to be miserable
Just because I am
I'm not the center of the universe
It would be a bit of a disaster if I was
It's almost better that the universe doesn't care
That it will keep going
There was already too much pressure
And my life was unspectacular
No, I won't be the bright-burning star
That fades too fast
I'm just a little sputter of flame
That had a few pathetic moments
Then died
But maybe I won't die
There's still time to come off the ledge
Maybe I'll become a full-blown bonfire
Either way whatever I do
The moment after will be an end and a beginning
Either the end of my time
And the start of a world without me
Or an end to my depression
And a beginning to happiness
And I decide
In that instant
To step off of the ledge

[ToVaTHeMaRTiaN]

This isn't the best, but I wrote it in 5th grade and just found it while looking through my old notebooks. Never decided if they decided to step onto the roof or into the air though...