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[ChristianTanner]

Realizing - A Poem

Written by Christian Tanner
There's a door to be unlocked,
and sobriety is the key for me.
Consequence would break me,
But I'm stronger than that.
Anxiety might break me,
But I'm coping with that.
What breaks me is my everlasting memory of the men who got a piece of me and made me so hateful.
I've been unbearably dreadful,
leaving me unable and disgraceful.
Taking anything that was once peaceful,
And turning it into everything that is painful.
The best part about writing this is knowing that I'm still alive,
and this is right now.
Time remains for me to re-frame this situation.
This situation,
I'm fighting the problem of regression and turning it into a personal equation.
No more complication forsaken,
I've left an impression to be inpatient without a replacement for my mind's invasion.
My mind's invasion - Evil.
At least,
Priest,
Please,
Cast the evil demon in my mind out of my head,
This hate feast,
The Devil's eating like the beast believed.
This heart-ache conceived by secondary evil,
achieved by man,
and yet to be relieved by me.
Please,
Pencil,
Write away my hate.
Draw away my fear.
Pencil in my fate,
And forgive my past years.
Please,
Christian,
Me,
Think about what you have to live up to.
Imagine the relaxing blue,
and know that the most important voice to listen to,
is you.
Now,
Tell me what to do.

[ChristianTanner]

Looping

A poem written by Christian Tanner

For those who feel like they lost their childhood, or it was lost in the mix of being abused. We were so young when we lost the best part of ourselves to the worst things in life. We sat on the curb sometimes and simply wondered why.
Why me?
I saw them there, all the warning signs, stopping me and telling me to turn and run and hide. I tried to listen and, and do the right thing, but my self-fulfilling prophecy tore into me and fought with me and made me always wonder why. I always wondered, am I living my own story that I wrote when I was a kid? Have the stepping stones led me into a pit of lessons learned? Or am I free to fly wherever I may turn?
God, I ask you, please send someone here, here, right in front of me, to stand by side and help me fight off the demons who are grabbing me by my wings so I can't take off for my flight, to live my life the way I, the way I always wanted to. Regret and shame tore into my soul, unpacked its bags and laid a bed before it, so it could quietly lay and sleep, waiting to wake and tear into me with a blade into my heart, haunting me until the day I die, fighting me until I give up and can't move on. Regret is the pain that rumbles me before I fall asleep. That pain that keeps me awake in bed while I stare at the ceiling, waiting to fade away, or quietly slip away, and do it all over again tomorrow.
Still, I can feel the wondering why, the unanswered questions are repeated in my mind, "What else could I have done?" Or "Was I really just too young?" Still, I feel the regret, it's slipping off my tongue while I reach across to pull you even closer to me and whisper that I love you, that you're perfect and I will always comfort you. I am the man I am created from what was never meant to meet you. The one I fought and defeated so I could be with you. I almost slipped away, but my inner circle couldn't watch me live another day with distress suppressed by another drink, watching things go down when the bottle went up.
I don't need it. I'll always tell myself, I don't need it anymore.

[foralackofwords]

Temperature of the Heart

Witnessing history begin to repeat,
Expecting what foolish pain I’ve learned to fear.
Familiar as novels counting dust by the sheet,
Carving me into one skittish as deer.

Justifiable under naivety or youth;
Comfort discovered against the grain…
There lies a known yet unspoken truth,
And unsaid it shall remain.

Some will say I never learn
Some will think I’m mad
Though ashes first must always burn
Crow-shades will speak of a fire once had.

Nikki Haase
Gunnison, CO

[iamatxgirl]

Monkey on my back

Couch potato, crushed tomato
All the while sitting in your very own auto
Backseat drivers, curly headed riders
All they do is chat and hash with people drinking your cider

Are these people that know you
Or are they just monkeys on your back like gliders
No understanding to what really is best for you
For all that, do they understand
Or is it just a light not even turned on with them

Breaking down what you know
Do they even show
No empathy, no resignation,
Complete with no rays of sunshine or the warmth on your face
They are the ones that may as well spray you with mace

Drop the monkey let it go
It is your choice.yours alone.

Shannan
Beavercreek

[Asialove36]

Butterflies in the Winter
Sin seeps through solid minds like the sun slips through my tented blinds
Love leaves liquor leaking in your heart like locked lips being torn apart
Dreams drive devils dry like the heat dripping into the desert sky
Hate harms a healing soul too young to destroy to old to hold on

And just like that we all beat our feet to the same old drum
We'll cry for the same guy with no reason why he cheated
"I couldn't help myself" he'll cry
"I couldn't help myself" he'll sigh
"Goodbye," I'll tell him
Two halves torn apart
But yet he'll walk right back into my life, my home, into my bed, and into my crooked heart

Pain came thick
Driving me insane
The game was played to quick
Drugs drew my attention when suicide knocked on my door
Nothing left fighting for
Whatever made me numb to the decision
Hope hid in the hillside of my mind dangling by a cliff
Left decaying overtime

And just like that we all beat our feet to the same old drum
Wondering who we've become
When we're left in a room with 10 pills and a gun
And all we need is to see the sun
But it never comes
And you're left to drown in your tears
Lost in your fears
And the devil creeps into your ears with no words to remark
But better yet tarnish your smile, your spirit, and your crooked heart

But then came butterflies in the wintertime and they rose me up
Rubbed my back when I was crying, said I was worth it no matter what
They sang me lullabies and made me feel enough

So to hell with the oppression of a man lost in depression
I no longer wait for his impression
To fulfill me
Time brings change that no one can rearrange
It's the breaking of incoherent lessons
Like birds being set free

And just like that we all beat our feet to the same old drum
Hoping someday butterflies will come
And we'll no longer have to run from the start
Of our hopes, our dreams, and our indecent crooked hearts

[SetoSenpai]

-Empathetic Vindication-

Hate, dwells in those condemned
When one cannot apprehend
The ire of those who see no end
Suffering from needs unmet
Their kin in trial beget
In hope one must forget
A society birthed from ignorance
Where love is scarce, a hindrance
When the poor lack significance
In the eyes of many indifferent
Swept away as “insolent”
Yet in truth wholly innocent
I stand looking into the space
Callous indeed the human race
To those with uncertain fate
Can’t we perceive nor understand
When one needs an outreached hand
Not just view from a witness stand

Strive we must to recognize woe
Of those around us who’s nights grow cold
Need more they, than simple gold
Our world a land of strife and fear
Poverty, crime, odium and tear
I take his hand, his face a ’smear
With dust of sorrows and grief
His eyes betray his disbelief
And embrace as brothers on the street
Understand for we are all
Together in love not appalled
Different yet same in the squall
In life, empathy, must we lend
All endeavour, our best to mend
A broken world,
To comprehend

Justin Seto
Toronto, Ontario Canada

[jagan7463]

I didn't had no love for any motherfucking ho's
all i cared only bout me and my bro's,
then u came from nowhere and took me like ufo

when everyone said cut the shit
and told me to move,
but i never listed to them all i want is you
in my dreams u just kept on rewind
dont play with my mind
ma heart is twind to you

i did things to you, made things for you,
r u checking my sincerity, u r like a gravity
stop checkin me like mobile camera clarity

u said u love me to the rest
of the life
but u just left me behind
understanding u is the biggest quest to me

i came looking to you from place to place
but u just kept on flew
but i never gave upon you
if i made a mistake
i know i cant undo
but you can see through my heart evrything i said was true
you are like treasure n more to me
i found you like a pirate without a crew
when i came looking at you
faced so many demon and crossed 7 seas for you

i told everything i felt for you
u can stab my heart leave me dead n u can move
but still my soul keepin following you....

[TJShaw]

UNDERSTANDING
I’ve tried and tried
To be so understanding
I’ve stood upstanding
Been so appreciative
Sympathetic, empathetic
When others have not been so supportive
I’ve tried and tried
But it makes me tired
The wrangling, wrangling
Jangling
Of the tolerant tolerating the intolerant
They just don’t seem to understand
They’d rather do it underhand
Even backhand
Their indulgent
Self-indulgence
Not giving anyone a chance
A voice, a choice
Their voices drowning
Faces frowning
Self-indulgent just clowning
Why must we be understanding?
Or are we just being mis-understanding?
To the misunderstood
Who won’t let us be understanding!
Their misunderstood
Our easy-going nature
Our easy-going stature
We totally understand
There is no underhandedness
We just need the understanding
We’re totally upstanding
We have great sympathy!
We show our empathy
So why can we not be so understanding?
Understanding we are different
Yet some show indifferent
It is not always the case to be totally
Understanding
© Teresa Joseph Franklin
6^th January 2015

[Tricia]

Broken

Memories like insurmountable mountains
Lie frozen and bare
Punishment for past sins
And nothing can save me - not even a whispered prayer
Hard to breathe buried in ice and snow
With a wind blowing so hard it won't let me go
Wrapping its deadly fingers around my throat
Raging an assault with eyes that gloat
While God delivers me unto my cell
A set of stairs that descend into hell
To forever repeat what should never be spoken
I am, I am, I am irrevocably broken

[Rynketsra]

Growing up was a dream, that I wanted to see
happen because I needed to be free
from the growing anticipation inside me.

Yet facing the crowd as the lights shut down
placed a special crown
onto the one outfit completion; a frown.

what they told me was extremely true,
and I realize now,
I should’ve listened to you.
Because I’m about dead too.

but what i say,
if i may,
is the day,
my life decayed.

switching between,
my momma and dad,
is the only thing
i didn’t want.

but when that stopped
the one reason
i got sad
was me.

keeping all your emotions
in a small pill bottle
of a brain
makes you insane

the feeling of hatred
as you glance in the mirror
is the pill bottles
one label

take 16 times a day
the doctor prescribed
but those pills dont help
when the person who raised you calls you fat

as i raised grades
my weight raised too
but my confidence decreased
as i put a foot on that scale.

walking through school
as the girl
who never wore skirts
was my title

grade 4
starting a new school
all those kids
laughing at me

you have yellow teeth
you have ratty hair
you are the epitome
of disgusting


all of this
through 4 grades
forced me to
do something i didnt want

and it ends up that i’m here now
i’m alive
i’m breathing
living

understand
im fragile
but you didn't
know

and i’m a size 15
i have ratty hair
but i am what i decide
and this is who i am



Growing by: rynk

[Electron.John]

People please do not post your poems as replies to this rules topic.
Back out to the "RhymeZone 2014-2015 Poetry Prize entries" forum and click on the blue box that says "+New Topic" and create a new topic with the topic title being your poem title. Thanks.

[shereen]

http://forum.rhymezone.com/forum/rhy...n-is-a-gay-boy

[luna5000]

Can we delete our own posts after the contest is over? I am going to post this as a test to see if I can delete it.

[carolinekelly]

How do you a delete a post?

[luna5000]

Caroline, if you click "Edit" under your post, you will see a "Delete" button.

[luna5000]

OK, I see now that the answer is YES. Thank you! (I guess I will leave this message up in case anyone else is wondering?)

[otaku.poet]

Are we allowed more than one poem?