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thought we hated each
other but i could never tell
left and kept something
after all of the time gone
waited for myself to stay
turned into an enemy
thought that love is best
not kept locked in a chest
and the best reality real
not a section for revenge
not mine at all -- i dont believe
at all the judgments on me
don't believe my own for them
recluse like this and spoiled
midnight sugars and mercy
bloodless needle lights
something about my death
for weeks the prattle sinks
I can't imagine how long now
and the way it goes,
erased, deleted, what's worse?
i fight til the end just because
and you end up
winning just because?
i wait until my insanity subsides,
they painted me
much more than i was,
a dagger to point without sides
something not violent or dangerous
prayer stuck to the walls
in here where the laughing was
and the naked truth
and the way I fell in love
and the seconds slowly passed
couldn't help myself
fell out of love within days
and then
something touched my leg
and i felt its warm healing
i still do love, myself and more
i couldn't account
couldn't add it all up
wasn't resigned until i was wrong
bitterness doesn't do anything
painful that every face
o im sure the ones who look down
deserve to rub it in
painful that every look
is bowing down to whats wrong
rapes and murders
the world is full of blood
rapes and these children
the FBI list in my head
how many crimes commited
the voices are the cops now
O be safe and remember love,
I wanted to escape as well
never bad enough to make a point
my case is just sitting there
and shuffled by the wind
then it's like I haven't broken my law
but somehow
it's worse because
the sense of disappointment
when i try to give.
the way you neuter me and
everyone else
with excuses
because i bribed you
with a
perfectly clean slate
caught in a lie again
why was I lying?
i'm such a big guy again,
they're beating up my dreams.
threatening me
and full of what is that,
love to hit me like
i got rid of them before?
make you think
instead of me.
win by dominance,
but force does nothing.
writing my poems for me,
child's play,
stand before someone else
and don't think "I am"
the same mistakes I'm using
to live a life
I kept on proving
was not enough
I knew I was hurting for you
hurting you too
Holy Spirit would not forgive me
stupid bull and poetry.
love because
i mean something.
don't cry, my son,
when i am gone.
--
other but i could never tell
left and kept something
after all of the time gone
waited for myself to stay
turned into an enemy
thought that love is best
not kept locked in a chest
and the best reality real
not a section for revenge
not mine at all -- i dont believe
at all the judgments on me
don't believe my own for them
recluse like this and spoiled
midnight sugars and mercy
bloodless needle lights
something about my death
for weeks the prattle sinks
I can't imagine how long now
and the way it goes,
erased, deleted, what's worse?
i fight til the end just because
and you end up
winning just because?
i wait until my insanity subsides,
they painted me
much more than i was,
a dagger to point without sides
something not violent or dangerous
prayer stuck to the walls
in here where the laughing was
and the naked truth
and the way I fell in love
and the seconds slowly passed
couldn't help myself
fell out of love within days
and then
something touched my leg
and i felt its warm healing
i still do love, myself and more
i couldn't account
couldn't add it all up
wasn't resigned until i was wrong
bitterness doesn't do anything
painful that every face
o im sure the ones who look down
deserve to rub it in
painful that every look
is bowing down to whats wrong
rapes and murders
the world is full of blood
rapes and these children
the FBI list in my head
how many crimes commited
the voices are the cops now
O be safe and remember love,
I wanted to escape as well
never bad enough to make a point
my case is just sitting there
and shuffled by the wind
then it's like I haven't broken my law
but somehow
it's worse because
the sense of disappointment
when i try to give.
the way you neuter me and
everyone else
with excuses
because i bribed you
with a
perfectly clean slate
caught in a lie again
why was I lying?
i'm such a big guy again,
they're beating up my dreams.
threatening me
and full of what is that,
love to hit me like
i got rid of them before?
make you think
instead of me.
win by dominance,
but force does nothing.
writing my poems for me,
child's play,
stand before someone else
and don't think "I am"
the same mistakes I'm using
to live a life
I kept on proving
was not enough
I knew I was hurting for you
hurting you too
Holy Spirit would not forgive me
stupid bull and poetry.
love because
i mean something.
don't cry, my son,
when i am gone.
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