Heliotrope

[Bison]

Do you think that God wants to die sometime
To let us alone in this machine
Like ants between the glass
Do you think she would turn out the light
And climb into a cosmic pine box
And give her best impression of sleep
Until we wake up in her place
A hundred billion voices fighting for space
Drawing breath through one throat
Crying for a mother to come home to
Ah, we all become our parents alright

(In the silence, I feel movement)
Watch me burn
(In your absence, I feel true)
Know that it still turns

So what do you think
Does God seem like a deadbeat father
One moment, the glory and power unknowable
The next, a man who couldn't bear the weight
Of raising the child, couldn't stand his reflection
In the eyes, our eyes too bright
Hey, hey, there's a gaslight
Lamp burning just up ahead
Can you see it, turn your back to it
And wonder where all the other lights go

(In your voice, I know doubt)
Watch me turn
(In the darkness, I know you)
Know that it still burns

Is there heaven left to find
Among the stars, among the pine
Great Giver, why have you taken your time
An almighty mover, yet we remain behind

Leave your desires for the heliotrope
Oh God, what did you know
When you left us here alone
Did you intend to let this much time pass
In case you ever hear this
I want you to know, without a sliver of hope
The kids are not alright