Past ,present

[DepressingPoem]

𝗔𝗴𝗲 𝟲
have no care so i act how they want
be what they say and there enemys i haunt
be there fear so what theres pain
they and the ones who disserve the rain
yes i have my demons this is my battle
like a diamond back i kill but don't bother to rattle

let the see the evil that you can do
let the all find out that in the end they have no clue
sit still there just and cause them pain
in the end you stand to gain
convince yourself you don't care
help your friends cause the a scare

hurt yourself the very next day
feel the pain lurking within what to say
i feel the ruin of a sould that resides
to feel the heat of love what a suprese
find that someone cares and cares
brings me directly into tears

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𝟭𝟎 𝐲𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐬 𝐥𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐫


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𝗔𝗴𝗲 𝟭𝟲
walk up the the gait that stands so tall
the surrounding a 10 foot brick wall
walk around and find a tree to climb
git to the top and jump back down just in time
the camera moves it time to go the backs unlocked
keep going and notice a guy so very slowly he is stalked

take him slowly by the head for now
shove him to the ground he won't allow
pull my knife dipped in carisoprodol only to walk away
suddenly he tries to chase but falls over no chance to pray
creep into the attic and find a child coverd in scars
ask her to come with me her seeing stars

she now follows me slowly but surely limping
clearly her parents were abusave and dringing
the mother hears a noice and sees the attic door open
suddenly she yells "child when I'm thought you'll be broken"
we get to the gate she slips trough the bars and hides in a bush
as the mother walks by she spots me and i respond with a push

we fight for the gun suddenly a cop arrives
suddenly our hands are up and we fear for our lives
they put hand cuffs on my wrists and walk me out
suddenly i remember the child and respond with a shout
"God help me leave god let me stay" the cop let go stunned
we run to my house almost three block away and take out fund

for ever on the run to protect children in pain
maybe if i was better my life wouldn't be so plain
if i can save her from the pain i feel every time i close my eyes
maybe if i can save her from constantly running and working with spies
if i can save her from the life i'v lead
the it won't be in vail all the times i'v blead


By: DepressedPoet

[RhymeLovingWriter]

You write heavy topics, which are sometimes difficult for me to engage. But I really like the way you both structured (10-year time break) and formatted this (the typed symbols and dots remind me of paper that's been scored for easing tearing).

[DepressingPoem]

lol

[Poldy]

This is nightmare fuel - and I mean that as a compliment not a criticism. Your images and ideas are sticky. The one I'll probably be taking from this work is the "help me leave, let me stay" feeling I've never expressed in those words but realize now I've felt many times in the midst of a crisis.

[DepressingPoem]

I'm in the middle of a crisis so at least i know where the words came from