How To Disappear

[PotterHead22807]

When the pain

Becomes too much

And you feel yourself breaking

All you need to do

Is to disappear Into nothing

And follow it




When the voice

Gets too loud

For you to fight back

All that’s left to find

Is the broken piece

That you lost




When cutting and scratching

Isn’t enough anymore

To save you from yourself

All you have to do

Is let go

Of that hope




When every part of your body

Feels like dying

And you know there’s nothing you can do

All you have to do

Is listen

To its pleas




When the darkness

Begins suffocating you

Drowning you in self pity, and lies

All you have to do

Is give up the struggle

And take your last breath




When they’ve taken it all

Every color, every happiness

And every memory of joy

All you need to do

Is disappear

Into darkness




When your mind

Becomes a toxic place

Filled with cuts, and pain

All that’s left

Is to end it

And put yourself at peace




When it’s all gone

And you feel empty

Nothing left to give

Don’t push any further

Just let go

And beg yourself to die




When you can feel

Death approaching

And beaconing for you to come

All that’s left

Is your brokenness

So don’t fight it




Just let go.


———————

I know it’s been a long time since I’ve posted. But dispute that I’ve actually been writing a lot, I just didn’t feel my poetry was good enough for anyone.

- PotterHead

[RhymeLovingWriter]

So glad to see your name in the queue PotterHead22807. I've been a lot less active in the zone myself, so understand how that can happen. As for not being good enough for anyone? Not to worry. I don't see anyone around here judging.

[Johntee]

And beaconing for you to come
But dispute that I’ve actually been writing a lot
I would guess both underlines are typos
and should be beckoning and despite.
To echo RLW, Glad to see you again
Your poetry is quite good enough,
though perhaps its subject
matter is a little bleak.
We have to hope
it's not the way
things are
for you.
In life sometimes,
the sun shines.

[amenOra]

I had thought 'beaconing' worked well, actually, myself! It is hard to enjoy a poem with such pain, and yes, it's there to remind us of that shining light, a reason to remember, and personally this hit much too close to home. However, I thought the repetition was nice, sort of a chant. I liked the staccato beats of the shortened lines, I thought it worked well. As for the subject matter itself, hope it's the case where the writing's a way of coping. And not true to life, I guess.
Well thanks for sharing and coming around again, nice to see you PotterHead.

[Johntee]

I hesitated when I typed because it does work well, and if intended, more poetic in its light.