I was a member of the “Be all you can be.” Foundation.
Self-Improvement books.
Time management.
The American mantra.
“Follow your dreams.”
Red, white and blue with a bow on it.
I went big.
I went homeless.
I went insane.
Ten years later,
Huddled under my sage green comforter
Waiting for the perfect moment
To haul 350 pounds of regret out of bed
Thanking my blanket as I do so
I pray there’s still coffee in the cabinet
Because who knows who was in charge last night
One of me having a poetry party, no doubt.
I’ll have to check RhymeZone and see what
Personal information we disclosed
To the poetry community.
Coffee is a Go!
So I don’t face another day of staring bleakly
At the vanilla shell that is my apartment
And the plastic wood-simulated floor
Counting the household tasks at hand
Hating the work
But loving something to do
I am disabled.
Now I’m happy to wake in the morning
And see that sun rise,
(Unhindered by metal bars and bulletproof glass)
Get caffeinated,
Praise another day of a semi-sound mind.
And leave all of the voices
Who said I’d do ‘big things’
Behind.
“Our dreams are the forgotten path to Heaven,”
Said Harold Klemp,
And I am my forgotten dream.
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