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Moment on the Beach
Letting beauty pass us by
Could turn out to be a curse.
And letting love back into our lives,
Is a dangerous type of artwork.
You are a blessing in human form.
At least that’s how your warm lips feel
Pressed against my own.
But the water on the beach,
and the way you wrapped me was cold.
A moment came where our hearts
Demanded we be bold,
And we let our minds
Make our decisions.
This has been three months in the making.
I don’t know what to say anymore
When someone asks if we’re dating.
I’m not complaining, or saying
We should define ourselves with labels.
But tell me, who else do you think is capable
Of caring about you this deep?
You say my words are too sweet,
But deceit does not plague my mind.
Yet it creeps in the depths
Of both of our beings
And confines our dreams.
Now, I don’t mean that
We are disloyal, or
Anything of that nature.
But we cannot call ourselves
Free people and run away
At the first sign of real danger.
And there’s nothing wrong with you
Leaving when things get too real.
Just don’t lie to yourself
About the way you feel.
I may conceal certain aspects of my emotions,
But I was ready to let it all go in that ocean.
In the dark night,
With the waves forming white foam,
Carrying you in my arms,
I felt your fear in my bones.
But was left soft-spoken.
You have been honest.
And I do appreciate the full disclosure.
But knowing you don’t trust yourself
With me, is a promise to lose each other
As we grow older,
We will see other people,
And let them interact with our surface.
I am getting so tired of
All these worthless people
Trying to take parts of me
To fill their empty portraits.
Backstory done. Fill in:
December 12.
I was two months
Out of a two-year relationship,
And three days
From my 22nd birthday.
I was about to publish my first book,
Ready to turn the page
To a new chapter in my journey.
I always thought you were beautiful.
Kind of like a peaceful Sunday morning.
But it was the way you came off
As kind of evil that really turned me on.
You agreed to a first date,
“But nothing too serious.”
“Great. What about Glenwood cemetery?
I hear it’s real mysterious.”
“Sure. I’ve always been curious
about the dead. But not too late,
or I’ll get scared.”
Fast forward two and a half months,
And we still haven’t been there.
But we’ve stared at murals,
And seen the moon continue its phases.
We’ve grown closer in the dark places
Where we thought fear erased loves graces.
There has been two times where
A moment has passed us by.
Once on your birthday
When you were with the other guy,
Whoever he may be.
But you still almost kissed me
In front of everybody that day.
It was probably only because
Your mind was hazy.
I don’t know how crazy I am about you.
But my pride and virtue have
Both been non-existent lately.
I mean, and continue to stand behind
Any statement I will ever make.
I know what’s at stake,
And if my words break me,
It wouldn’t be the first time
That life has rearranged me.
Let’s go back to the beach
And its cold weather.
You said it’d be warm,
But I know you just wanted to
Get me in the water.
Why would you
Let me follow you out there
If you were just going to let me go?
I hate when actions
Prove words contrary.
I used to think you telling me
You felt the same was revolutionary,
Now it just fades into the air like smoke.
I told you I felt distant on the way home,
And I meant it.
We used to be consistent with our passion,
But you ran away from making it everlasting.
That’ll be casting a shadow on us for a while.
At the least, it’ll deepen our divide.
I don’t want you to lose me
But you can’t be afraid
Of your heart actually being right.
I am falling.
Not in love,
But in to the beauty that is calling.
It is pulling me into
A whole new life
That is living without knowing.
I’ve been having that thought lately;
When it comes to us,
Fuck all the labels,
Let’s trust past all conventional growing.
We are not normal people.
And we shouldn’t fight
What the light is showing us.
Like I said in the beginning,
Your wrap up is cold.
You have a soul wrapped up in frozen gold.
But I embrace it.
Because let’s face it;
It’s going to take time to thaw your heart out.
And it’s going to take
Even longer for me to make it out.
So if in the future
Something comes along and breaks our bond,
Then there’s nothing wrong with
Sharing memories and favorite songs.
Just don’t go too far.
I want to find you on another beach
Under the breach of stars.
And carry you in arms
As the waves crash upon us
And the moment opens our hearts.
Xavier O. Mendoza
Letting beauty pass us by
Could turn out to be a curse.
And letting love back into our lives,
Is a dangerous type of artwork.
You are a blessing in human form.
At least that’s how your warm lips feel
Pressed against my own.
But the water on the beach,
and the way you wrapped me was cold.
A moment came where our hearts
Demanded we be bold,
And we let our minds
Make our decisions.
This has been three months in the making.
I don’t know what to say anymore
When someone asks if we’re dating.
I’m not complaining, or saying
We should define ourselves with labels.
But tell me, who else do you think is capable
Of caring about you this deep?
You say my words are too sweet,
But deceit does not plague my mind.
Yet it creeps in the depths
Of both of our beings
And confines our dreams.
Now, I don’t mean that
We are disloyal, or
Anything of that nature.
But we cannot call ourselves
Free people and run away
At the first sign of real danger.
And there’s nothing wrong with you
Leaving when things get too real.
Just don’t lie to yourself
About the way you feel.
I may conceal certain aspects of my emotions,
But I was ready to let it all go in that ocean.
In the dark night,
With the waves forming white foam,
Carrying you in my arms,
I felt your fear in my bones.
But was left soft-spoken.
You have been honest.
And I do appreciate the full disclosure.
But knowing you don’t trust yourself
With me, is a promise to lose each other
As we grow older,
We will see other people,
And let them interact with our surface.
I am getting so tired of
All these worthless people
Trying to take parts of me
To fill their empty portraits.
Backstory done. Fill in:
December 12.
I was two months
Out of a two-year relationship,
And three days
From my 22nd birthday.
I was about to publish my first book,
Ready to turn the page
To a new chapter in my journey.
I always thought you were beautiful.
Kind of like a peaceful Sunday morning.
But it was the way you came off
As kind of evil that really turned me on.
You agreed to a first date,
“But nothing too serious.”
“Great. What about Glenwood cemetery?
I hear it’s real mysterious.”
“Sure. I’ve always been curious
about the dead. But not too late,
or I’ll get scared.”
Fast forward two and a half months,
And we still haven’t been there.
But we’ve stared at murals,
And seen the moon continue its phases.
We’ve grown closer in the dark places
Where we thought fear erased loves graces.
There has been two times where
A moment has passed us by.
Once on your birthday
When you were with the other guy,
Whoever he may be.
But you still almost kissed me
In front of everybody that day.
It was probably only because
Your mind was hazy.
I don’t know how crazy I am about you.
But my pride and virtue have
Both been non-existent lately.
I mean, and continue to stand behind
Any statement I will ever make.
I know what’s at stake,
And if my words break me,
It wouldn’t be the first time
That life has rearranged me.
Let’s go back to the beach
And its cold weather.
You said it’d be warm,
But I know you just wanted to
Get me in the water.
Why would you
Let me follow you out there
If you were just going to let me go?
I hate when actions
Prove words contrary.
I used to think you telling me
You felt the same was revolutionary,
Now it just fades into the air like smoke.
I told you I felt distant on the way home,
And I meant it.
We used to be consistent with our passion,
But you ran away from making it everlasting.
That’ll be casting a shadow on us for a while.
At the least, it’ll deepen our divide.
I don’t want you to lose me
But you can’t be afraid
Of your heart actually being right.
I am falling.
Not in love,
But in to the beauty that is calling.
It is pulling me into
A whole new life
That is living without knowing.
I’ve been having that thought lately;
When it comes to us,
Fuck all the labels,
Let’s trust past all conventional growing.
We are not normal people.
And we shouldn’t fight
What the light is showing us.
Like I said in the beginning,
Your wrap up is cold.
You have a soul wrapped up in frozen gold.
But I embrace it.
Because let’s face it;
It’s going to take time to thaw your heart out.
And it’s going to take
Even longer for me to make it out.
So if in the future
Something comes along and breaks our bond,
Then there’s nothing wrong with
Sharing memories and favorite songs.
Just don’t go too far.
I want to find you on another beach
Under the breach of stars.
And carry you in arms
As the waves crash upon us
And the moment opens our hearts.
Xavier O. Mendoza
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